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It’s almost 12 weeks since my Spider died (on 2nd September), and I’m only just coming to terms properly with him not being around anymore. I still cry every other day, missing him like crazy, and having moments of disbelief that he’s really gone. But the good thing is that his twin bro Lugosi has recovered ok from his own grief – he was so depressed and totally unresponsive for about 2 weeks, and he also had a nasty urinary tract infection that took two long courses of antibiotics to cure. But now he is back to his normal self, if not more cuddly and clingy than before (which is understandable).
I am concentrating on him and my girl Ruby now, and on keeping only the good and wonderful memories of Spider alive, even though the whole process of putting him to sleep and him dying in my arms will forever haunt me. Here I am in tears again, just thinking about that! 🙁
Anyway…. here is a video of the little “Spidertree” that I dedicated to him, and some piccies of him with me and his siblings. Rest in peace, my beautiful boy. I miss you and love you, always.
I decided to dedicate the mini pine tree I got today to my boy Spider, who was sent to the Rainbow Bridge on 2nd September. Missing you so so much, my sweetie, LOVE YOU, ALWAYS. 🎄🐾💔😢🌈🌈🌈😢💔🐾🎄 #cats #rainbowbridge🌈 #tabbies #tabbycats #gatos #katzen #ilovecats #kitties #pets #animals #grief #grieving #bereavement #catstagram #catsofinstagram #catlover #catlady #madcatlady #forever #crazycatlady #catsoflanzarote #seniorcat #oldcat #mycats #catlife #meow #lettinggo #curepetcancer2017 #pinetree #inmemory
Spider with his bro Lugosi back in London, when they were about 2 years old.
Spider in March 2017 – he was still so active and playful for an almost 18 year old cat!
Ruby, Lugosi & Spider – I miss seeing this cute threesome together!
Spider walking home with me after the vets on his harness and leash.
Sadly, this is the first Halloween without Spider, but we would like to think that he is haunting us as a ghostly spirity cat this year, bless him…. Missing you so very much, my sweet boy, and LOVE YOU, ALWAYS!
I hope that this is what Spider would think…. Rest in peace, my sweet little boy.
Missing you and loving you forever.
I bought this e-book called “Soul Comfort for Cat Lovers” yesterday, which is a really big help for bereaved cat parents. Amongst a lot of other helpful advice, it suggests to make up an altar or sacred space where you can remember your beloved furbaby and talk to him, if that is what you need to do.
I made this altar for Spider with his favourite toys, the ping pong ball and mylar ball, his favourite chewy stick treats, a candle that I will light every night this coming week, two manekinekos for good luck in the next realm, and an angel hugging a kitty that a friend gave me a few years ago. I would like to think that I myself am that angel holding my sweet, gentle boy Spider tightly in my arms. And never let go. *sob*
I bought some valerian tea and tablets yesterday to calm my nerves, and I think they’re helping a tiny bit, but I still hurt so much, it’s like someone violently ripped out part of my heart and there’s now a gaping wound that will never heal. But it will. Eventually. It will leave a big Spider-shaped scar, but it will heal… Rest in peace, my sweet boy. 🙁