R.I.P. Spider – Forever Missed and Loved

R.I.P. Spider – Forever Missed and Loved

Today I lost my baby, my friend, my soulmate and “husband“. Spider left this world very peacefully at around 13:20 hrs today, 2nd September 2017, in the comfort of our own home. I held him in my arms until his last breath and for a few minutes afterwards, before my vet Marga took him away to be cremated, and I will receive the urn with his ashes in about a week to 10 days’ time.

I was around friends all afternoon which really helped take my mind off things, but now, being at home, it is really hard because everything reminds me of him. The sheet that he died on even smells of him still, but after spending 5 minutes sniffing it and crying into it, I told myself that I need to move on and I put it in the washing machine. I have never been one for living in the past, and even though Spider’s passing is going to hurt for a long time to come, I have to be strong and look after his twin brother Lugosi (also 18 years old) and his half sister Ruby, and I also need to look after myself – something which I have not been doing for that last few weeks since Spider’s cancer diagnosis.

I told Spider before he left this world, that time works differently “up there” and that for me it will be many years before we meet again, but for him it will just be like an hour and then I will be right there again with him in no time. And Lugosi too.

I just stopped crying for about 10 minutes and now it’s starting again. But most of you will know what losing a pet is like, so I know you will understand. Rest in peace, Spider, my beautiful boy.

Telling him I love him forever, just before he was sent off to the Rainbow Bridge. 🙁

  • Gidget Cat

    we r so sorree, hugs to yoo and da rest of yor crew

  • Teresa Spanics

    AWW :'( My deepest condolences on the passing of you dear sweet Spider :'( BIG CYBER HUG

  • Doug G. Thomas

    Hugs and tears for you and Spider. Never easy. This is the price we pay for the joy they give us in life, but you have the added comfort of knowing you gave Spider the best possible life a cat could have. More hugs.

  • The Island Cats

    We are so very sorry. 🙁

  • Charles Huss

    I’m very sorry for your loss.

  • pilch92 .

    I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy.

  • Jean Neilson

    I am so sorry…aw heck…..I am weeping for your loss….it means so much when one leaves us. You seem to have a better attitude than me….I shut myself away for a whole week and then slowly would see peeps. Just know my thoughts are with you.


    Canadian Cats

  • Thank you so much, Jean. I guess I just have a different attitude from you, because we are all individuals and have our own ways of coping the best we can. I find that when I’m alone it’s so much worse, and when I’m with somebody I am distracted and talk about day to day stuff and things I enjoy and I almost forget my grief during those moments. Then I’m alone again at home and *everything* reminds me of him, and I cry and cry and then cry some more…. I think today I am just slightly better than yesterday, and day by day, my grief will turn to love and sweetness, I do know that…

  • Thank you, sweetie. 🙁

  • Thank you. 🙁

  • Thank you, darling. 🙁

  • thank you for the hugs and tears, thank you….

  • Thank you for the hug!

  • Thank you, sweetie. 🙁

  • Doug G. Thomas

    All of us who’ve experienced such a loss understand how hard this has been and will be for you. More hugs for you, Barbarella. I’m pleased you have had a chance to read comments left on my blog about poor Spider. They come from people all over the world.

  • Yeah, that was really sweet of you and I appreciate all the comments from true animal lovers….